August, 27th, 2004 Friday(11:53pm...)

Fried my arms today. Supersetting biceps with triceps really feels great, i enjoy the pain. Completing a total of 30 sets. Alot of people would comment that its too much for such small muscle groups, but hell, think about it, if you never blast them to the max, how would they grow huge?
I supersetted barbell curls with skullcrushers(5sets), incline dumbell curls with triceps pushdown(5sets), close grip barbell curls with close grip bench(5sets), reverse curls with kickbacks(5sets), 4 dropsets of barbell curls, hammer curls(3sets) and dips(3sets). Crazy? maybe, but hell it works. no need to follow strictly on what to do first and what to do next, but do them all. After adding in the reverse culrs, and all the pain, sweat and hard work, i managed to add on 1/2 an inch on my arm, that makes my arm 17.5inches flexed.
Started my cutting phase this week, doing cardio 3 times a week, 30mins every session, plus abs...starting to feel better, leaning out quite fast cos i'm taking some thermogenic shit. drop 1.5kgs of water retention and 0.5 inch of fat meat round my waist. should continue for another 3 months to see what i'm made off....
not dieting hard enough, should cut some more carbs. the stupid bird flu had caused the price off eggs to inflate like mad...$3.50 for 30eggs was like 2 weeks ago, and now $4 for 10eggs?!? what the fuck?
no choice gotta buy more chicken breast and beef.....

August, 22nd, 2004 Sunday(3:51pm...)

Hell, have not been blogging the entire week...tried to blog on 2 occasions but the blog just won't get updated...
quite a busy week, numerous projects to handle on hand, and the fucking due is this week... trained too hard in the gym this past week hitting shoulders, chest, back, arms and legs twice from last sunday to thursday...that is 4 days! every session is a torture i put myself through that last for 2 and 1/2hr... strenght basically increased around 10%? able to bench 2plates for good 10 reps without spotter, military pressed 1 1/4plates for 10reps, dropset lateral raise from 15kg to 12.5kg to 10kg, 10reps every different pair of dumbells, and hell, i did 4 sets of that...i literally drop on the floor and felt like crying, for the burn on the delts were sensational... did a 2plate bent-over barbell row for 10reps too. As a result from all these training from hell, my joints are aching quite badly...rotator cuffs, wrists, elbow, knees...sometimes, the pain is just to much for me to handle....
woke up fine on friday morning, thought it would be a good day, cuz its the fucking last working day of the week... but hell, got a diarrhea....followed by another...followed by another...followed by another!! went to the doc, I thought a must have consumed something contaminated... but he said I was down with gastric flu...and was running a temperature of 38.2 degrees!
I lost 2 kg of mass in 2 days... it was until last nite then i start to have some 'proper' high protein meal... lost a ton of water i think, but hey, i find myself more leaner hahahah....c'mon i know you would laugh...
wasn't feeling quite well yet yesterday, but still, i had dinner with a bunch of my oldtime buddies, hanwei, yaokun, ah pui, and hoeyong. mostly are my secondary schoolmates, don't mess with us, the whole damn table is full of blackbelters..hahaha...
went to sing at ktv at loyang point after the dinner, hell, we wrestle again, and again, and again! the first time i fell victim to them... we were all crazy and let it all go... maybe it was from the stress at work that everyone was experiencing....
went home, damn...down with fever again...popped in some pills and hit the bed... felt much much better today! but i'm not planning to train today, will resume my training on tuesday. even machines need to rest.

August, 15th, 2004 Sunday( 5 more mins to monday....ahhhhhh)

The Reason - Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

.... just a cool song that I like very much since its release....

August, 15th, 2004 Sunday(11:32pm...)

another week has passed... an average week with no major upturns or downfalls.. same moody week like all the previous..i guess. went fishing yesterday with chang and george. george was a first timer, so he landed zero fish, me and chang each had 2 barramundis. taman jurong wasn't really a 'promised haven' of fishing. think those guys in fishingkaki.com just exaggerated...
did legs today as usual, not much of power today, i guess its the after effect of the energy draining fishing session yesterday. not good man. isn't suppose to be this way! I want to pump legs heavy! but.... i did hit the max weights, but i didn't hit the max repetitions i usually do, damn....
guess i got increase the cardio from once a week to twice a week...shit, i'm feeling a bit fat. and i don't want to be a fat fuck. but.... staying cut while growing big is no easy shit man, definately no. its gonna be a long, tiring, boring, sick, moody, tough road ahead... no choice, i pick this road, i'll walk to the end.

August, 10th, 2004 Tuesday(10:57pm...)

second monday

wasn't feeling very good today... infact, i wasn't feeling well, i don't know why but i felt so damn tired the whole damn day... head was fucking heavy... feeling damn moody... i think it must be the 2 1/2hrs balls to wall shoulder training yesterday.... really drain my ass off.... ate my chicken breast for my 4th meal and i puke over the damn taste... the fucking seasoning was from hell....
didn't train today... damn guilty... but i was way too tired to drag my ass to the gym, instead, i drag it home... i was pondering whether its monday or tuesday...shit...
somebody save me.

August, 9th(AGAIN?),2004 Monday(12:50am...)

oh yah... almost forgot that today is national day...
MAHJULLAH SINGAPURA!!!
....my ass....

August, 9th, 2004 Monday(12:31am....)

legs day.. didn't really whack them hard, justa few dropsets on the leg extensions and some 2plates squats...and some hamstring curls... didn't felt like pumpin too hard today at gym, call that moody or attitude, on some day like this, I just don't feel like pushing myself too hard to the brim... but still, i've got myself a pair of pumped legs home. see, on these days i just couldn't pump heavy and with moderate weights, i still get the job done, hope that next week would be better.
damn, the world of sports at TM had closed down, still tot that i could get the NIKE tee i saw at marina on saturday nite. i like that tee, but they don't have my size...geezz...
couldn't even manage to get a NIKE cap...geezz.. and i forgot to buy the micheal buble's CD, shit... full of shit today...
met up with george for dinner on saturday nite, oohhh... the buffet was awesome, we ate the sashimi, mutton, crayfish, chicken, vegies... till will wanna puke.. definately worth the 25bucks..hah, cheap skate eh? NOT! haha ermm.. and i saw my 'long lost friend' wenjie there, wearing a horny mask with a girl... sick...
i was really really really mentally disturbed when we saw this huge gathering of gays, yes, GAYS!! arrhhh... at the ground level of the suntec city convention hall, probably there were hundreds of them, they're just too sick! TOO SICK! i really felt an evil aura, no joke i really evil! i felt satan there! i swear to god! i couldn;t help but felt so disturbed! damn, i still feel the shivers now as i recall. fuck, fuck them! damn them to hell! they are sick! nothing but some worthless faggots! now you can see how i can over react eh?
okay enuf of those sick bastards, COLLATERAL wasn't a bad show, tom cruise was helluva a hardcore hitman man...
best pick up line of the show? "since when are you in the position to negotiate?" cool, harsh words....
broke the law today... i actually ate a roti prata... shittttttt......
tomoro's gonna hammer the shoulders with george, gotta hit the bed now...

August, 6th, 2004 Friday(11:46am....)

Réflexions

Believe in one person: Yourself. Everything flows from that pool.
Don’t be afraid of pain. It will teach you.
Define your surroundings; don’t let them define you.
Don’t be a fucking pussy. Life hurts. So does loneliness, and so does change. But they are all necessary for you to become a better person.
Make things happen. Don’t wait for them.
Quitting is a habit, as is winning and losing. The second two happen to everyone. The first one should never happen to anyone.
Lead by example. Never become someone you aren’t proud of.

August, 3rd, 2004 Tuesday(12:24am...)

Damn, all the hard work and all I get is a miserable 100dollars increment and a 1/2 month bonus? do i have to stoop so low and flush my pride down the pipe to accept that as a fact? hell no! and he know from that moment a threw the fucking increment letter right back to him. what about those posers who only know how to act busy and get over 1K of increment? does working overtime means he is busy and not working overtime means i'm free? hell no! a productive worker need not work OT like mad! fuck it, just fuck it, all my hard work is only worth a hundred bucks to that mother fucker, that worthtless son of the bitch, that asshole with no self esteem and self respect...
the more i think of it, the more my blood boils and the more hungry i'm to taste his blood.
to me now, if my work is not appreciated so be it, from this damn day onwards, my heart is dead for this company, no more whole hearted work, until i manage to find a better job. and i will find one from today onwards!
my heart really sank, really sank, whats the point of working so hard? recognition? bonus? increment? prospect? I find none here...send me some signs god, if there are any...

August, 1st, 2004 Sunday(11:12pm....)

the start of a new month again, but hell! tomoro's MONDAY?!?! sick... the thought of going to work makes me wanna puke...
met up with Chang and george yesterday. bought some rubber lures over at beach rd with chang, they better work at the taman jurong fishing pond that we're heading in 2 weeks time... damn.. hand itchy again...fishing.... hasn't been agressively fishing for the past 2-3yrs since i got myself so engross into bodybuilding... i was once a hardcore fisho man! my fishing gears could total up to maybe 3-4 grand! still remember those days when i fished almost every part of singapore almost every weekend... well, time had changed and i've grown... occupied with work and bodybuilding, i simply don't have much time for fishing...
we up with george later in the evening to go to the GNC over at suntec convention. WAH LAN....WADDA FUCK, the tribex had all been sold out! so i just got myself 2 tubs of glycerlean protein.... sad....
had dinner at kenny rogers and chill at mr bean for awhile before heading home to K.O.
did legs today... feels damn great... my poundage for hamstrings curls increased! woohooo...