Its a bloody monday again. but, somehow, it seems different from the other mondays where you drag your tired, weekend-consumed ass thru. Always had alot of events in mind to write about, but whenever I sat myself infront of the pc, those things just refused to flow, and fingers became numb...
Alright, I think I shall drill a hole at my temple and let the thoughts ooz out first...gimme a minute...
Yeah, thats more like it, I've got them flowing now.
The past week was a hell of a week for me. went for a second interview with the MD of the US company which I wish to land my ass in. It went fine and I beat the other candidate for the position of tooling design engineer. I was happy, but at the same time felt a little sad.
I was happy for myself that i finally secured the job and had the chance to leave this god damn mother fucking company I work in. I was a little sad cuz once I agreed to hop over to the new place, I would miss this coming trip to melbourne to visit my sister, which I haven't got to see her for more than 1/2 a year. But I think I should be more rational rather than emotional this time round and I chose the job.
The other reason that I'll be a little sad is that I would be leaving my work buddies in this fucked up company soon. I've know these fuckers for 2 years plus. and our friendship had grown tremendously during this period. They are a bunch of insane fellas. We became buddies. not just colleagues. but you know, when you've gotta go, you gotta go. i believe that our friendship will still hold.
And today, would be the start of my final 3 weeks in this sick place. I tendered my resignation last friday together with another fellow design engineer, which somehow cause some upturns in the company which I didn't really expected. We were all along while being taken for granted and till the point of our resignation, we were actually somehow 'appreciated' and asked to stay on.
That guy was sorta a 'jerk' who likes to show off and not many ppl like him. However, I had to reluctantly agree that he did quite alot for the company and wasn't being appreciated. His style of resigning was cool, he tendered and left on the spot that day. He said any minute more in this company would make him puke. I couldn't agree more to that. But the reason of me giving a month's notice is that I still believe, I should settle everything before I leave, and not to leave a bad impression, you know, this is a small world, we wouldn't know whether would our paths still crosses in the near future in anyways. I'm not trying to act god here, but this is what I think a responsible and sensible person should do.
My resignation went quite smoothly at first cuz I knew that the asshole manager would be more than happy to see me leave. He didn't liked me from my first week of work here. I didn't liked him either. so since I don't like him, I decided to hate him to the core. He did all sorts of unimaginable nasty shit to me, that makes me wonder I'm going to work everyday or just going to hell. But being a determined and hard-headed moron, I persevered on like a naive child thinking that my hard work would somehow be recognised and appreciated. But I was horribly wrong. I just see myself falling deeper into the shit hole everyday. I need to help myself for god's sake.
He received my letter and seemed happy, he was smiling away when he spoke to me regarding my resignation. I was quite pissed and told him straight to his shit face that I am resigning and that was my resignation letter, I don't see anything funny about that. The smile was immediately cut off from his shit face. After that I just left his desk without saying anything more, I was disgusted by this mother fucking piece of dung.
Shortly, I was called up for a meeting with the sales manager, when he got to know about my resignation. Now, this guy is the only man in the company I respected. he actually asked me to cool down and think about the resignation again. He asked me to stay on to help him. But all I could say to him is 'sorry'. I had enough of the shit and blame being put on me for all these time. It was quite alot for him to take cuz 2 of the design engineers helping him tendered in a single day. His projects would surely screw up.
Come saturday afternoon, while I was enjoying the 'lost' marathon on axn, big boss of the company called me up and asked me why I wanted to leave. now, thats quite cool. He said he wanted to speak to me personally this wednesday. ahah, seems like I've gotta prepare myself a speech to 'impress' them.....we'll see....
